Mania Meme
Posted on February 11, 2006
in Mania Memes
UPDATED
Everyone is different when it comes to how they express their mania. Last night, I started to make a list of symptoms that I exhibit or feel when I am in mania. Pretty soon, I found myself laughing — I’ve got it bad right now. To tell the truth, I am writing this last night. And today. Which makes perfect sense. But who but a manic would find that fascinating from anything other than a clinical perspective?
Here’s a list of things I do when I am manic. Bipolars: make this a meme. I tag Manica, Maggs, BipolarGuy, Barb, and Jil.
- Giggle about roadsigns.
- Walk around the house singing Willie Wonka songs and complain that I can’t get them out of my mind.
- Roughhouse with the cats.
- Go for hours and hours without eating, then pig out.
- Lose focus on the road when I am driving.
- Speeding.
- Completely lose track of what I am talking about when on the phone.
- Hit tabletops just to see everyone’s reaction.
- Suddenly decide to make this a meme when I had set out to do something entirely different.
- Write confrontational essays. When very manic, publish those essays.
- Talk very loudly about being bipolar in public places.
- Write poetry, short stories, creative fictions. (This is one of the better fruits of mania. If I could choose just one to keep, this would be it.)
- Speak and write as if I were a prophet. (When I start believing that I am a prophet or God, it is time to check in.)
- Do everything fast.
- Read political blogs and get very very pissed at George W. Bush. (This is only a sign of insanity when I get very very pissed. It’s quite normal to be pissed at the bastard.)
- Use profanity.
- Dream of flying out to see my friends elsewhere in the world. Now.
- Keep returning to the computer every time I think I’ve written enough of this list and adding yet one more item.
- Start screaming at people who everyone — including me — knows aren’t there. No, these aren’t hallucinations. These are delusions — I scream as if they will hear me in their dreams.
- Start talking back to bad memories.
- Forgetting why I went to the kitchen. Walking back to the computer. Forgetting why I sat down in front of the computer. Remembering why I was in the kitchen. Going back to the kitchen….
- Going to bed after writing an article. Getting up because a better word, a missing sentence, or a new take occurs to me. Writing it down. Going back to bed. Getting up because a better word, a missing sentence, or a new take occurs to me…
- Writing and writing until I am late getting started for an appointment. Driving like a demon to make the appointment.
- Believe that I can predict what everyone around me is going to say. Find out this is true. Being very terrified of the prospect that I am God.
- Hear of Descarte’s Demon and being frightened that I am the only person alive. Believe that I am also the Demon. Be very angry that I have constructed such a painful universe for myself to live in.
- Couch everything I think of in sexual innuendos.
- Prepare myself to be the next and best Pope, the one who will set the record straight on sex in the church.
Rules for the meme: First, you must be bipolar or schizoaffective. Second, simply make a list of your signs that you are in mania. Third, tag up to five people to keep the meme going.